All I ever do here is upload pictures and rant about/for Kimmy.
Today's no different.
PICTURES, BABYYYYY =]]


Me and Eric outside my house =]]


This right here, this is Love.


Had to.


Why do I ALWAYS smile at times like these?


EmoScene =]]


Bimbo faceeeee.


What we've all been waiting for.


No more pics,
but you should All be satisfied by now =]]

PS: Babe, who said I was Over You?

I got so worried about You when I heard you after like 2 million years. So this one's for you =]] Well, All my posts are for You, so.

Firstly, you are NOT a Bad Person. I know you're not. 'Cause I spent a year with a girl I loved, and still love, more than I love life itself. You're not bad at All. Remember when this same thing happened in WSMS? With Sydney H telling you you were evil and immoral and shyt? It's happening again now. I say, Forget It. Forget it. Don't bother trying to change back, 'cause it's Dumb to change Back. If you want to change, change into something New. 'Cause life doesn't wait for those who want to stay in the past.

Just move on, forget about the negative thoughts, who cares if you've changed... You still have so many people who love you to bits and pieces and who Will love you no matter What. Remember I said, I'd love you the same even if you were a drug peddler in Brazil? Remember I said, I'd love you even if you called me up every day to scream at me? Remember all those things? They still hold water. We've had our problems, but so what, real friends stick even when they see the other changing... Even for the worse. Because I know there's no point stopping you, it'll only make you do it more, not to mention that you hav to be able to have your Own opinions... That's the kind of girl you are. So I won't stop you, you're right after all, people Need to get hurt once in a while.

Tough Love, girl. But you gotta do it, and you gotta trust that you have so many people you can turn to. Like me, and Jason (though yeah he doesn't talk much), and Prar, and Nick (when he's not MIA), and those two lovebirds or whatever you call them, and your classmates, and that kid who likes you =]] We ALL love you. We WILL be there for you no matter how screwed you turn out. And if you changing causes you any grief, we will say, fine, we were wrong. But we'll pick you up from there. It's the only thing we can do. And we sure do a Good job of it.

About the relationship thing, babe, I know you take these things really seriously. Trust me, I know. I do the exact same thing. I know it hurts to know that she never loved you like that. Desperation IS a poor excuse. But maybe she deserves another chance, to be friends? It's up to you. I can tell you she never meant to hurt you... But I guess wounds don't close up so fast. So my advice is, keep your distance, you guys will be friends when the time is right... Which isn't now, when you're still bitter and angry like this.

And girl, don't be angry. It's not all your fault, stop taking the blame. The way I see it, you guys hurt each other the same. It's just that you happen to have alot of other shyt going on, which makes things much worse =[[

I wish I was there to wipe your tears away. I wish I was there to hold you in my arms and give you a huge hug, the hug you deserve after all this. I wish I was there to deal with both of you and make things okay. I wish I was there to listen to you... But I'm not. I can't be. I'm sorry babe.

I still Love you so much.
I hate seeing you so upset.
But then, at least you know you're alive enough to Feel upset. See? Pros of everything.

And abut the friends thing, I say don't follow anyone's advice blindly. If you think they're good, stick to what you say. If they do end up bad, then fine, take the hit, suffer whatever 'bad' they might do. But you'll never know if you just walk away now. It's not fair to them anyways.

you're beautiful
but you don't know
can't see what's there, inside your soul
always feeling like you're not good enough
you wish you could be someone else
sometimes you just can't see yourself
but i can see just who you are,
who you are

you're Exceptional,
the way you are,
don't need to change for nobody
you're Incredible,
anyone can see that
when will you believe that
you are
nothing but Exceptional?

AMC ♥ KNS =]]]]]]]]]]]

Anytime you need a listening ear, I'm Here. I know what this is like, we went through the same shyt together in WSMS... We may not be in the same place but keep the faith keep strong... We'll pull through this one more time. And we'll come out stronger than ever. I promise you. In the meantime, don't hang out with anyone that makes you feel down. Hang out with people who'll shower you with love, without losing sight of reality. You need support right now. And amiga, you have support.

Mi amor, muchos amor =]]]

I LOVE YOUUUUUUUUU.

I guess it makes sense to post about you here, since I only got a blog for You.
It's safe to say, part of all this - or maybe the reason - is Jealousy.
I'm surprised you got over me so quickly.
Maybe you only loved me on the rebound from that Kid.
But Sexy, I love you Alot.
I'm being immature by not letting you go, though Obviously you love Her and want to be with her. But I guess I can't forget you, the way I sometimes wish I could.

I remember how it feels like, to have your lips against mine.
I remember how it feels like, to wake up in the morning and the first thing I feel is your breath on my shoulder.
I remember how it feels like, to hug you for more than a minute in the middle of Winter.
I remember how it feels like, to know exactly when you're thinking about me.
I remember how it feels like, to see your face come alive when I first see you in school.
I remember how it feels like, to cradle you when you cry and push the hair off your face so it doesn't stick with the tears.
I remember how it feels like, when you give me the most innocent stare, but I know your thoughts are more than slightly less innocent.
I even remember how it feels like, to be angry at you, and hate you because of the way I'm in love with you, no matter what.
&& I definitely remember how it feels like, when you call me up at unexpected times when I need you most, like some perfect clockwork.

I can't pretend that I'm not jealous, because I Am. Why does she seem to make you so much more excited, and happier, and crazier, and just more in love than Me? Was I really that bad, that you don't even remember what I did for you? Do you still have any of the notes I gave you?

I have All of yours, and two years later, I still read them. Some of them still make me cry, when I think of what we had.

You did love me, I know you did. What about now? I know I'm a failure, a loser, an idiot and a whore, but I thought you'd accept me for that. && Now, my place has been taken, so fast. How can it be?

I'm not saying you guys shouldn't be together. I support everything you do, and you know it. && She's a really nice girl. She knows how to treat you right, she knows how to be your Ideal. She does deserve you. A sweet, talented, beautiful girl like you deserves someone who recognizes it.

Let's face what we all already know : a girl like You could Easily find someone. I mean, you're one hell of a human. So naturally, I wasn't shocked when you said you were With someone, because, I thought, yeah, I bet it's true.

Then I got to thinking, does she even care about me?
I think I'll just ask you now.

Would you care if I said I love you? Would you care if I said, I don't want to die because I don't know if you ever loved me? Would you care if I said I wish I could just get to wherever you are, and run away with you forever? Would you care if I said, I'll gladly wait for you, even when I'm old and greying? Would you care if I said, I want to be your everything at once : your lover, your friend, your sister, your mother, your god (though you're an atheist), your advisor, your saviour, your punching bag, in short, everything you need? Would you care if I said, I hate holding hands with anyone else, because it doesn't fit right? Would you care if I said, I even love the way you breathe, the way your eyes squint, the way you write, the hilarious things you say at the most inappropriate times?

I'm never so sentimental, but look at what you've done to me.

I'm not blackmailing you, I genuinely want to be yours, even as a friend, if that's the best I can be.

But if this is the last thing I ever say to you, I want to say this.

Thank You for being my friend, for sharing the most important seconds of my life with me, for being willing to let me cry to you even at 3 am in the morning, for givin me some of the best memories I will ever get, and for showing me that it's okay to trust people.

&& If ever things don't work out with her, or you decide you want out, or things die, I will always be here. Always. && That's the only promise I can make you that will hopefully mean something.

I should end this with your favorite quote.

"... and this is the only immortality you and I may share, my Lolita."

Beautiful.
Darling.
Exotic Babe.
Dumb Blackette.
Asian Kid.
Hooker.
Girl Fight Partner.
Mrs Whoever.

I Love You.

remember this one?

Will I be there when you call me
In the middle of the night
Will I keep the rain from falling down into
Your life?
I promise
I promise
I promise I will.

Ahah Babe! I AM JEALOUSSS.
Grrrr.
Lol, but as I said, it's okay, cause I've had you AND I always will =]]
Cause you know I give the best kisses and the best hugs.
Haha, no I'm not fighting over you! =]]
Just some pics to put up.






this next one's for KIMMY. (since I can't call her Babe anymore.)



&& BRITT BRITT.
Haha, ♥!
LOVE.
You're Sexxxxy =]]
Pics later, swear.

Okay, it's been A Long Time since I posted last.
Well, what's been going on here? Hmmm...
Mikey came back for like 2 weeks from Oregon. <33
I made this from random pics I had:



&& Here are some pics from Mikey's visit! I look so good for a person who just got run over. HAHA.

I can't believe it, he's watching Mom buy cheesy bread.


CHICKEN LITTLE HEAD!


Jacking Jason's fav hat.


Some seriously disgusting shxt we made.


A Healthy and Nutritious Meal :P



&& BRENDA OWNS THESE NEXT PICSSS.







&& Old pic with Tabitha.



AH I'm a camwhore!
<3333 you All. No preferential treatment.

So you wanted to End it... Babe I understand. Some of the things you tell me about how you're feeling are Really Badd. I'm sorry you think no one understands you. Me included. I will kill to know, though. I'd die to help you. Cause you're too good to be emotionally wasted like that.
I will always, Always love You.
You know, I guess I realised that suicide is Never worth it. I've tried like 4 times already, and it hasn't worked, and I'm Sure there's a reason for that. Maybe I should just accept that maybe I'm Not meant to go yet, so I should stop tampering with time and just let life take its course.

RIP MATTHEW DANIEL CLARK
(March 4, 1987 - August 11, 2005)
You're always still here with me, breathing and alive.

2 years ago today, my skies turned grey and a huge part of me Died.
Growing up, you were the only thing I could count on other than constant Tragedy. You helped me out when I had a problem and you went all over the place Just to find me something healthy to eat when I had dance competitions and stuff. For 6 years you worked for me and Mark, just so he wouldn't get so mad so often. && You made your friends take me in when you felt it was the least safe at home.
Then, it happened. I remember it was so scary. For months after - til Now, even - I keep thinking I'll have the same untimely end as you, and Dad, and God knows How many other people I've knwon who died. Do you know that, to this very day, I have a horrible phobia of lorries? I have not gone near one since. Not to mention bridges. I can't bear to be in a car driving over bridges now.
Are you proud of me, Matty? I went through with the adoption, like you told me to for so long. I studied. I tried to be strong, and Yes I did Fail, but I promise it won't happen again. I found happiness. I found a family. I found all the things you would've died - and in a way, that you did die - for me to Have and to Keep.
Here's to you : my Only True Family.

The day I forget what you did for me, I'm certain I will die.